All I want to do is be a winner.

All I want to do is be a winner.  All I've ever wanted to do is be a winner, be successful, feel like I am accomplishing and excelling.  The one thing in my life that I have never had a grip on is my body, my weight, feeling and looking comfortable in my clothes.  This is the story: I love food.  Scratch that, I LOVE sweets.  I would (and sometimes do) eat them morning noon and night.  I was a serious athlete all my life.  I never had to worry about my weight.  I was always toned and muscular.  What I am grappling with now is that I have the heart and the drive of an athlete with the body of a couch potato.  I am tired of wearing sweats and I am tired of starting on Monday.</p><p>I am 30 1/2.  Everyone says that your metabolism slows at 30.  The truth is that, well, the truth hurts.  And while I dont feel doomed to live with a less than stellar metabolism, I am struggling with a body post 30 and post baby.  You have to work harder and make better nutrition decisions.  AND, you can work as hard as you want, but if you continually put shit in your mouth you will look and feel like shit.</p><p>I bought the tone it up program at a steep $150.  What I got was 119 pages that I had to put in a binder that I also had to buy.  Then i had to spend a bunch of money on food that I didnt have.  I am set to start the 7 day slim down monday or tuesday.  I have high hopes for this program b/c I have literally tried everything else.  I am hoping that this is the last time I ever have to talk about my "weight loss journey".  It gets old.</p><p>Watch me on this journey.  I am a winner and all I want to do is succeed.</